Can’t Believe I am Sharing This!!

I have been thinking about Owain’s birth, the weeks leading up to it and the days and weeks after. I feel like I am doing much better this year than I have his first 2 birthdays. That is mostly because I have filled my days with as much as I can, the less time I have to stop and think about it, the easier it is for me to deal with when I do think about it. I have to keep myself busy or I find myself reliving those moments when they took my little blue baby away and told me that he has a CHD. When I close my eyes, it is all still like it just happened yesterday. I know I can’t completely push it away, and I don’t really want to, I just can’t let it take over my life the way it has in the past. I guess that is all part of the healing process, finding ways to deal with it from day to day and year to year.

I was looking through his photos of his first couple of days and I realized that I don’t really have very many of them. But I did find find this photo of me taken on April 8th, he was born May 3rd, so it was close to a month before he was born…I only got bigger and bigger from this day.

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  1. Anastasia | 17th Jun 11

    You look great. I’m glad that things are getting easier for you. I can’t imagine the strength you must have found to handle it.

    • Hazel Nut | 19th Jun 11

      Thanks Anastasia! Strength found me, and now I hope it finds me again for his next surgery.

  2. Shell | 15th Jun 11

    You look so happy!

    • Hazel Nut | 15th Jun 11

      Thanks Shell, I was! I loved being pregnant, such a magical time 🙂

  3. Jessica | 15th Jun 11

    How cute. All tummy for sure.

  4. Karrie | 23rd Apr 11

    I think reliving the past has it’s own methods of therapy. I love belly pics! Thanks for sharing!

  5. amber | 23rd Apr 11

    WOW! I wish I looked that pretty when I was pregnant! What a beautiful picture and what a beautiful child that came soon after. 🙂

  6. Kristine | 23rd Apr 11

    You look gorgeous. 🙂

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