Love Hate Super Annoyed

This week has been a hard one for me. The past few days I have had a hard time holding on to happiness. I have found myself thinking in terms of Hate a lot this week. Like, “I hate it when my kids pee all over the floor”, when I normally think, “this is so annoying”. I know it might seem like a little thing to think about, but I don’t think like that except when I am feeling down.

I know the sick kids, lack of sleep and Mr Wall Nut working out of town has a lot to do with it. He is never home and I am here to take on everything alone. It never changes. I just don’t like feeling this way. I have been working, teaching myself, learning how to talk myself down. Today I thought about the love-hate relationship I have with many random things. But not so much a love-hate relationship, as love-super annoyed relationship.

I love that we have grass over most of our back yard. I am super annoyed that I have to mow it.

I love Eddy’s chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. I am super annoyed that it is always gone.

I love getting up early for a workout. I am really, very, super annoyed that I have to get up early.

I love that I have dozens of vegetable plants in the ground. I am super annoyed that it took me so long to get them started.

I love playing Wii with my kids. I am super annoyed when I have to play party games all the time and I can’t just sit and play Zelda while they watch.

I love turning off my computer and going to bed. There is nothing annoying about that.

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  1. Kim in Phx | 29th Jun 11

    My naturopath has helped me a lot with my moods. I now take mega doses of magnesium (nature’s tranquilizer) and fish oil. Fish oil is fabulous for PPD and actually helps to create serotonin and not just circulate what we have like prescription drugs. Everyone in our house of five takes magnesium, cod-liver oil, and probiotics daily. We haven’t had a respiratory illness in almost a year. This is huge for us as my kids usually got sick before at least 4-5 times per year. Since I have three boys, they’d pass sickness around like candy. So we’d be sick for three weeks at a time. Plus now we drink raw milk and have switched to all things organic and I make a lot of our food. It all helps, I believe. But my mood was completely changed by photo-progesterone and Mineral Rich magnesium and cod liver oil! Best wishes!

    • Hazel Nut | 29th Jun 11

      All of that is so interesting Kim! Thanks so much 🙂 We take lots of omega 3 fish oil, I am curious about the other things you mentioned.

  2. Susan M. | 28th May 11

    I have had one of those weeks too….sick children, the hubs out of town, lack of sleep. Take it easy on yourself, feed them easy-to-prepare foods on paper plates. Monday will come soon enough, and you will have a fresh start! Praying for you, dear sister!

    Confident in Christ,
    Susan M.

    • Hazel Nut | 29th May 11

      Thanks Susan! Now that Mr Wall Nut is home, things are settling down and we are all feeling better.

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