Some days I get so confused, he makes me believe he is considering coming home to me and his family.
And other days he makes me believe I am the complete reason for all his suffering.
Some days he makes me believe that he has made a mistake, that he was wrong not to believe my love and marriage vows are true, living deep in my heart.
Other days he makes me believe that I am the mistake, and that I have no heart.
Some days I get so confused and wonder when I will wake from my restless and dark sleep.
Most days I am confused.
Most days I am in complete disbelief that my husband has walked away from the most amazing woman and family he will ever be lucky enough to have had.