Have you been looking for my Postpartum Depression?

OK, so we all know that I moved to WordPress a last month, it took me months to figure out the new format, and then when I thought I figured it out, I lost it all. I guess I a few other things got lost too. Specifically my Postpartum Depression posts that is.

Last week another Heart Mom with a baby just a few months old (not her CHD kid) told me about her Postpartum Depression. We started chatting about it on Twitter and it turns out that one of my PPD posts helped her out. Things were happening in her life and she started thinking about PPD and my post. She was looking for this post —> Postpartum Depression: Mama’s Losin’ It, but she couldn’t find it on my new blog. She also told me that she had to go back to my new blog to find it. After reading my Postpartum Depression posts from my old blog, she was convinced even more that she had PPD and she needed to get help. And just like me, it took her a while, but she did it.

And that my friends, it why I blog. Not specifically for PPD, but to help others. I blogged very randomly for a good 3 years before I really got into it, and it was when Wee Nut was born with his CHD that I really started blogging. At first it was more to update my friends and family on what was going on, as well as thank them for everything they were doing. I am terrible about getting thanks out to people. Bad at returning phone calls, I can never remember to send out thanks for coming to my kids party, and giving a gift, I am even worse about remembering birthdays, and anniversaries. I have every intention of doing it, but it is one of my biggest flaws. Anyways, I started blogging mainly to keep everyone updated.

Then it got to the point where I needed to write about my emotions, my falling apart, my meltdowns, my overwhelming feeling of being lost and alone with my son’s CHD. Before I knew it, other Heart Moms and Dads were leaving comments and emailing me. They loved hearing my story and loved connecting with me, and I with them. That started the beginning of my involvement in a CHD movement to raise awareness for Congenital Heart Defects and help provide support for other families who felt like I did.

Then came the Postpartum Depression. Again, my life was changed. Except that this time, I had the power to control it, to look at it and do something about it. And to know that someday I will be cured. Completely different from my son and his CHD. He will never be cured, only repaired. But me, I know that eventually I will get better. I love Twitter and the wonderful support I have found there. I love that a Heart Mama who I connected with, was able to find help in my blog. At this point, I really doesn’t matter if someone comes across my blog and remembers if for Congenital Heart Defects or Postpartum Depression, I am so glad that I have said something that helped another person out. I blog because it makes me feel better, to connect with other Heart families, and to share my life with my long-distance friends and family. And I also blog because I hope that I can help others, that someone will ready my blog and not feel alone.

At this point I feel the need to quote myself and share one of my more humorous Labor and Delivery moments. Shortly after I was give way too much stadol (a muscle relaxer)  and about 14 hours before I actually give birth to my first born, I declared “I’ve done my part” and then passed out. Obviously, my part of the Labor and Delivery had only just begun, but at that point, I was done for and calling it a day. At this point, I do feel like I have accomplished what I have set out to do. Help others.

Getting on with my post, and my lost Postpartum Depression. When I moved to WordPress I was excited that I had a nice, easily organizable menu bar across the top of my page that I could, well organize. After working on getting everything around here looking the way I wanted it, then losing it, then rebuilding it, I had started getting a major brain meltdown and I guess I over-thought too many things. I over organized and I think the only one who can really find anything around here is me. To get to my Postpartum Depressions, you have to follow the drop down menu on The Nuts to Hazel Nut and then follow that to Postpartum Depression. Now of course to my uber organized brain, that make perfect sense, but apparently not. I now I can see why, especially with my PPD posts, if you don’t know anything about me or my PPD, you might never know it is there. I spent so much time trying to simplify my blog I lost some of my posts in the shuffle, they got put away too far back on the top shelf. So I am going to rework my menu bar and try to better organize it and remember to look at if from someone who has never been here before.

I love knowing what works and doesn’t work for my blog. I haven’t really gotten much feedback, and I am glad that Michelle over at Is is Naptime Yet was kind enough to tell me that she couldn’t find what she was looking for and that I was able to help another mother out.