Can’t Believe I am Sharing This!!

I have been thinking about Owain’s birth, the weeks leading up to it and the days and weeks after. I feel like I am doing much better this year than I have his first 2 birthdays. That is mostly because I have filled my days with as much as I can, the less time I have to stop and think about it, the easier it is for me to deal with when I do think about it. I have to keep myself busy or I find myself reliving those moments when they took my little blue baby away and told me that he has a CHD. When I close my eyes, it is all still like it just happened yesterday. I know I can’t completely push it away, and I don’t really want to, I just can’t let it take over my life the way it has in the past. I guess that is all part of the healing process, finding ways to deal with it from day to day and year to year.

I was looking through his photos of his first couple of days and I realized that I don’t really have very many of them. But I did find find this photo of me taken on April 8th, he was born May 3rd, so it was close to a month before he was born…I only got bigger and bigger from this day.