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I am Not as Strong as I appear. I enjoy weakness from time to time. We are a homeschooling, special needs family of 6. My 4th son has a Congenital Heart defect, and my oldest has ADHD. I am a survivor of Adultery and mental abuse. I learned that you never really know someone until you are strong enough to stand up and walk away. I love and protect my children, with everything I have. My life might seem unbelievable, but I couldn't make this shit up if I tried! Stick around & let's get to know each other.

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Strong Enough

I do enjoy weakness from time to time, in fact I welcome it when needed and see it as a wonderful way to heal. There is a very small group of people who should know better than to think I am not strong enough to continue to homeschool and raise my children in the same way I always have.

Don’t forget, I have lived the life of a single mom for most of my marriage.

The only difference now is that I am no longer waiting for my husband to come home, wondering if he will be available to his family, or making more excuses for his constant absence.

Now that I know he is not coming home, life is so much more manageable. I know what to expect. And what not to expect. I will no longer be let down by broken promises. I know that I no longer have him to vent to when life is hard, when the kids are driving me crazy and I feel like a bad mother. I also know that there will be no demeaning response from him that will take the feeling of being a failure and turning it into believing I am a failure.

With no expected help comes no disappoint.

I am stronger than many give me credit for, or even believe is possible.

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It takes a song woman to stand next to a child, surrounded by machines having no clue if they will live or die. I am that strong woman.

It takes a strong woman to stand next to a father and not know if he will live or die, to be there when he leaves this world. To take a tragic moment in life to teach her children the real meaning of family, of love and respect, as they help each other put their lives back together. I am that strong woman.

It takes a strong and dedicated woman to offer forgiveness for the ultimate of all betrayal. Yes, I am that woman.

It takes a strong woman to raise and teach 5 children, and get very little emotional, physical or hands on help from anyone. And to be outstanding at it. You better believe I am that woman.

And there is nothing anyone can do to stop me.

Why is it so easy to be strong when what I could use now is the chance to be weak?

Because I have to be.

I continue to be honest, loyal, respectful, loving, trusting to an obvious fault, and above all – strong enough to be myself, to be everything I ever was, and everything I thought my husband was.

I will continue to homeschool my children and stay at home with them, because that is what they need. That is what they know. That is what they deserve. I am strong for my children, because without my strength, they are lost.

I do not lie to those I love, cheat to escape the lies, pretend to be someone I am not, or blame others for my own personal demons.

I am something my husband will never be. I am strong. I will get better and be better. I will be eternally happy in my life knowing that not only am I stronger than my husband, but I am stronger because of his weakness.

And that is Strong Enough.

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2 Responses to Strong Enough

  1. Lisa B...theTadey on April 8, 2013 at 11:32 am

    Amen lady, keep leaning on the strength of God and you will continue to be amazing! Those kids are blessed to have you as their mom!

    • Hazel Nut on April 8, 2013 at 12:48 pm

      Thanks Lisa <3 For a while he had me believing that I can not succeed. Not any more.

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