Love Hate Super Annoyed

This week has been a hard one for me. The past few days I have had a hard time holding on to happiness. I have found myself thinking in terms of Hate a lot this week. Like, “I hate it when my kids pee all over the floor”, when I normally think, “this is so annoying”. I know it might seem like a little thing to think about, but I don’t think like that except when I am feeling down.

I know the sick kids, lack of sleep and Mr Wall Nut working out of town has a lot to do with it. He is never home and I am here to take on everything alone. It never changes. I just don’t like feeling this way. I have been working, teaching myself, learning how to talk myself down. Today I thought about the love-hate relationship I have with many random things. But not so much a love-hate relationship, as love-super annoyed relationship.

I love that we have grass over most of our back yard. I am super annoyed that I have to mow it.

I love Eddy’s chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream. I am super annoyed that it is always gone.

I love getting up early for a workout. I am really, very, super annoyed that I have to get up early.

I love that I have dozens of vegetable plants in the ground. I am super annoyed that it took me so long to get them started.

I love playing Wii with my kids. I am super annoyed when I have to play party games all the time and I can’t just sit and play Zelda while they watch.

I love turning off my computer and going to bed. There is nothing annoying about that.